For Mother’s Day, my children gave me a bag of Dove
chocolates. If you aren’t familiar with this treat, the foil wrapping for each
piece of delight carries an uplifting message. The first one I opened this May
2014 told me, “You are exactly where you are supposed to be.” Creepy candy
knowing me too well.
I see I haven’t blogged since February of 2013. My life is
completely different now than it was then. Though I had an excruciating
journey, I am exactly where I’m supposed to be.
Hymnist William Mackay
penned, “Revive us again; fill each heart with thy love. May each soul be
rekindled with fire from above: Hallelujah—thine the glory. Hallelujah—Amen!” That fire refers
to a blazing desire, an overwhelming thankfulness, an all-encompassing passion
for the Savior. But fire burns. And sometimes it is an agonizing flame that
brings us to exactly where we are supposed to be.
Healing takes time. Many months passed before I uttered, “While I
wish I had gotten here some other way, I’m glad for where I am.” More months
passed before I realized: there was no other way. Fire cannot deliver without
destroying. Sanctity cannot exist without scabs and scorches.
I don’t believe God burned me into beauty. I do believe He embraced
me in the blaze. And I believe He made exquisiteness the outcome of the evil
that surrounded me.
Once again I am here, feeling now more than ever the
consequence of the name of this blog. And I feel ready to move, knowing these
scars aren’t something I have to overcome; they are a reminder of the love that
overcame me.
“Hallelujah—Amen!”
Mackay, William P. “We Praise Thee, O God.” 1863. Praise for the Lord. Ed. John P.
Wiegand. Nashville, TN: Praise Press, 1997.
732. Print.
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